Beauty in times of darkness...

On a scrap of paper tucked into my journal I found another reminder of His beauty in times of darkness. In times of deep dark anxiety I felt as though as I was drowning, becoming crushed under the pain - there was a battle, a conflict waging war inside my mind. He told me that you cannot have fear and faith and asked me if I would put my trust in Him?

"There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love"... ~1 John 4:18. 

2015- Dark thoughts

Imagine Jesus as a butterfly shining brightly. He comes fluttering into the dark forest of the mind and says, "Catch me, chase me, follow me", and leads me out of the darkness into the light. His wings glint as they catch the specks of sun shining. Pure beauty reflecting light into the eyes of those hungry for His goodness...

Reminders of His love...

As I looked back over my journal from 2015 I was in awe of everything God shown me and felt that it is important to share some of the revelations and dreams I had during that year to remind me of His glorious love. So I'll start with this one...

7th March 2015 

I had a vision last night so clear. I was deep in a forest and wild undergrowth surrounded me. I was sitting on a tree trunk crying and the rain was pouring down on me. It was grey and dark. Suddenly the rain stopped...It just stopped and the sun came brightly shining, everything was so green. A light so bright, glowing white shone a path through the undergrowth leading out of the tangled forest. I could see!

A hand stretched out of the light reaching out. It was so bright I could see nothing more than the hand. Then I started walking towards the hand - a voice spoke softly, gently but firm, "Come". I walked closer and closer following, a flash of blue eyes, a glimpse of white robe. The trees and forest disappeared as I was led into a peaceful area. Birds were singing, beauty was all around. Butterflies were floating, giant ones. I knew it was Jesus now who had led me here.

I woke up for a moment feeling warm and loved. Then fell back into a deep sleep...

A new year...a new adventure...

2015 has been an incredible year and I have been in awe over and over again of what God's been doing in my life! From beginning the year with a 21 day fast, having my whole relationship with my Dad restored, beginning University, working through my anxiety, meeting new people, worshiping at Big Church Day Out and David's Tent and visiting Scotland to say a few! 

2016 calls for even bigger things and I cannot wait to continue writing and journaling it all!